It is currently 3 A.M,  I always find it difficult to go to sleep when I have alot on my mind.  The figure(or the fashion figure) is proving very hard to master.  I have never been a classical artist, more of a singer, and doodler, but fashion and putting outfits together is like a second nature, sometimes to make myself fall asleep I'll put outfits together in my head.  Add a little Prada to Old Navy, or take away and add new things to what I have seen on the run way, if only I could put exactly on paper what I saw in my mind, it's like it won't come together yet, I'm missing something, a special formula that will please me.  This painting by John Singer Sargeant is one of my favorites (my mothers favorite artist) I have seen many of his paintings and sketches up close, each time I am completely astounded and floored.  This man, painted pictures exactly how HE saw the person, you can almost feel what this woman is feeling in the painting.  Did she choose this dress?  Was it a last minute decision? I'll never know...I guess neither will anyone else.  I find it easier to ramble when I'm delirious from lack of sleep.  I could go on for hours on why I love clothes...but I don't want to bore anyone, my goal with this is to see some sort of progress..even a tiny bit, and if not, say fuck it and move on to something else that makes me happy.  Have you ever had a terrible day, then gone into a thrift store or second store and found something that you'd been looking for months, maybe even years, and it changed everything?  I hate "Window Shopping" or " Browsing" the way it has always had to be whenever I have stepped into a Nordstrom or a Neiman Marcus.  Maybe one day...my designs will be in those stores, and I'll walk into SAKS with ease, ask to use the bathroom (the on in the Houston Galleria) and I'll sit on the ridiculously awesome  leopard skin bed, proclaiming silently, I don't feel like buying anything today...I'll go to Neiman Marcus instead...